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Hello all. My name is Prince. I am fairly new to this all, but I feel an overwhelming peace with being vulnerable. I suppose somewhere I just know this is a safe place. Last week I did a LETTING GO ceremony, and like JD said, it was emotional. Even though I had the ceremony, I feel like there is some things I may be dealing with. 

I woke up an hour ago. While sleeping I went into a paralysis. It happened 3 times in a row. I'd wake up and be overcome with shock because I couldn't move my body. This isn't my first experience with this, but the frequency with which it occurred was unusual. The first two times, I woke up, had a drink of water, and laid back down. As soon as I laid down, I went back into paralysis. 

The third time paralysis happened, I remember reading through the documents and specifically JD talking about visitors coming to take us elsewhere. Unlike the first two times I was paralyzed, I could sense two presences around me, and I remembered JD writing about how our emotions, when not in check, can negatively affect this experience.

Remembering this, I began talking to the presences. I wasn't talking to them in the physical sense because obviously I couldn't move my body or anything, but we were definitely communicating. Even though I couldn't move my body, I could kind of feel it (if that makes sense). 

I won't lie to you. Like the previous two times, I was still a bit scared/shocked, but I felt like I understood what was happening to me. And so, the presences told me that everything was okay and it was safe to come. And so, I did come, but as I was going I began to freak out. But it's kind of like the presences understood this. 

I apologized and told them I wasn't ready to go yet. And then it was like I was dropped off back into my body, and immediately the paralysis was broken. 

I woke up, sat up, and knew the presences were still there. I couldn't physically see them, but I could sense them. So, I just talked to them a bit. I was sad when I woke up and felt like I did something wrong, so I asked them not to be disappointed in me. 

Then I felt really sleepy again. But I knew with 100% certainty (or at least it felt that way) had I fallen back asleep I was leaving my body. That's when I didn't let myself go back to sleep, and I came here to tell you all what happened. 

I just felt led to tell you guys. Normally, I wouldn't do such a thing. But, I think somebody here will understand and be understanding. Like it said in "The Simple Truth," I'm not going to judge myself for what seems like a situation where I definitely fell short of the mark, but I will look at it as it is. 

If you read all this, thanks for working through any typos and passive voice :)